I Am Insecure

I use to be extremely insecure.To the point where I thought no guy would want me or love me and felt hideous and even suicidal about some of my insecurities if I'm being honest.Ive come a long way with my confidence and I have some now even though I still get insecure about the same stuff.That embarrassing story aside lately it's my weight making me a bit insecure.5 extra pounds which isn't a lot but with me being clinically obese (bmi wise)That does worry me a bit.Im also on a medicine that makes it easier to gain weight so trying to take it serious and slim down.