I Am Insecure
More Than A Feeling... Over the years I've made some deep observation's in my mental and emotional intelligence and, I've realized im "basically" that quirky stereotypically odd character everyone else feels they are. I understand indecision and the hesitation in life and, i don't care if i get left behind. There are people living in competition and, i all i want is to have a peace of mind (Boston).
I've never had a girl freind "per say", i dont feel i could handle the pressure of having to maintain someone else's need's when i can barely maintain my own.
I've also noticed that time doesnt wait for me (it keeps on rolling) and i have to get my sh!t together. I start my sophomore year of high-school in one week. It's nerve racking and I can feel the mental pressure, restlessness, anxiety etc.... i have a fear of the possibility of a crash in my life (as should everyone else). I cant comprehend why so many people are able to think and act in a successful dance of productive action. I haven't gotten the hang of that, though im trying to learn.
Being poverty stricken can be emotionally detrimental, and has effected my security. If 'm quick to defend myself but, im not the biggest guy in high-school (by far). Ignoring the fact that i don't have the typical average home and life pisses me off. It's disgustingly unfair. So i cope with Drugs and for the most part has been comfortably Numbing.(PinkFloyd)
I've never had a girl freind "per say", i dont feel i could handle the pressure of having to maintain someone else's need's when i can barely maintain my own.
I've also noticed that time doesnt wait for me (it keeps on rolling) and i have to get my sh!t together. I start my sophomore year of high-school in one week. It's nerve racking and I can feel the mental pressure, restlessness, anxiety etc.... i have a fear of the possibility of a crash in my life (as should everyone else). I cant comprehend why so many people are able to think and act in a successful dance of productive action. I haven't gotten the hang of that, though im trying to learn.
Being poverty stricken can be emotionally detrimental, and has effected my security. If 'm quick to defend myself but, im not the biggest guy in high-school (by far). Ignoring the fact that i don't have the typical average home and life pisses me off. It's disgustingly unfair. So i cope with Drugs and for the most part has been comfortably Numbing.(PinkFloyd)
26-30, M