I Have Been Abused

I have been dealing with this fact trepidatiously for the past week. Some days I'll be fine and others I'll feel like yelling at the world. I'm angry, and not even at him. Some days I'll just start crying. Nothing triggers it but the pain I feel when trying to get up out of a chair. It's been a month now, and it still reminds me of him. Although I know what I'm supposed to believe, I still blame myself for much of what happened, and it hurts...

I know that I was smarter than that. I should've loved myself more. I should've stopped it sooner. But then I also have to remind myself that it never should've began in the first place. It's not my fault. I'm not responsible for his behaviors and the way that he decided to respond to his distaste for me. He is an adult. A 6'4", 30 year old man, who should've been able to control his emotions and not let them blow up in my face, my neck, my tailbone, my spirit.

I could've been stronger in the past. I could've spoken up for myself sooner. But I have now, and I guess I can be proud of that.

guynamedcb

do you think people can change the way they express their anger....like if a guy was abusive in a prior relationship but doesn't see the world in the same way anymore and has no desire to ever abuse anyone anymore....do you think that guy could have a chance at being in a loving relationship

wtfgirl001 · 31-35, F

Of course. I believe that guy would have to work through his emotions and find a better way to deal with them. But yes, I think anyone can change.