I Think Failed Relationships Change People

@PoetryNEmotion Go outside more? I AM outside during the spring & summer, any chance I get! That would be my backyard, which if weather permits I am outside with my two furkids. In fact yesterday, I mowed my back lawn, moved my small wood pile, put some things away, because I knew it was calling for rain. Enjoyed time on my front porch while working on some hemp jewelry. I set up my greenhouse myself. I've planted umpteen different seedlings & have no problem with being in my own company! A Walk in nature? I don't drive, so going anywhere to walk in nature is out, or I'd be gone for sure! Or visiting someone else(if they weren't busy with plans of their own). I have invited people here and tried to make plans, but then they come up with some excuse or another and cancel. So I stopped asking. These are the same people who claim to miss me. I DO say hi to people & smile smh lmao. Explore the world? Hahaha! That's so funny! And yes, everyone I HAVE KNOWN HAS let me down!
My daughter had off yesterday, as I asked her what she was doing. She always complains there is no one to do anything with & she doesn't drive either. She lives 2 blocks away from me. She asked what I was doing & I said yard stuff & probably setting up the kiddie pool(for her son). Did she stop by? Nope.
My Partner is by no means Obligated to come here. She's not obligated to do anything & I'm good with that too! I don't make demands of her at all. My place is generally HER place of escape. Everything is on HER time, certainly not mine. A few months ago she said she was tired of being a weekend thing. Under the influence. But okay, what's THAT suppose to mean? Never elaborated. She's the boss at her job and makes her own schedule and weekends is when she typically takes off so we can do things. Sometimes, she will schedule a day or two off during the week, so we can do things on a good weather forecasted day.
She doesn't typically hang with anyone else either, except her family, who she lives with. Look, I'd be happy to have other friends, but when people know you have a Partner, and they have one also, and/or kids, they typically aren't asking if ya'll want to do something. If ya single & they are not, then they're not apt to ask you to join them in whatever. Where am I suppose to meet people? I don't do bars. I was going to a Drum Circle, but that ended when they moved their gathering place, aside from the fact that with my COPD its next to impossible to walk anywhere in my community, as it is nothing but HILLS! FLAT would be better to walk for me. So also, because I don't drive, others leer away from wanting to do anything, because they're driving lol
Soooo, dunno what else I could do. I don't need people in my life who are just going to use me for what they can get, nor am I that type of friend myself. I'm quite simple and easy to please. I can easily occupy my own time, inside or outside, unfortunately, it is at home. I'm not 25 anymore lol

@Wolfdancer Well, I thank you for your honesty and for your openness. I think you are at the age where you may surround yourself with people who enjoy spending time with you. And those who love you. I think you are doing fine. And, for the record, I would never take offense at anything you say to me. We are friends of a distance in a manner of speaking. I respect you and I like you. Have a good day. Til soon...:)

Absolutely :) I respect you as well and I like ya also. I'm all good. Just wondering why she makes such statements out of the blue like that. Always big on texting rather than talking. When she's at work, of course I can understand that. But rarely ever calls me outside of work when she's not here. I am selective as to who I associate with because I don't need the drama. I just find this place a safe place to vent my frustrations lol Today is a good day. Got a surprise visit from my daughter and my little grandson.