I Wish I Could Turn Off My Brain
Broken Switch:
Many times throughout my life, I have caught myself with a strong desire to turn off my brain. Luckilly, there is a switch that puts of thinking mode. The downside is, we don't have direct control over this switch. Only indirect control.
This switch can be flipped indirectly by doing an activity that would produce such a result. These activities - for myself at least - include smoking weed, playing computer games, sleep, listening to music and obsession... oddly enough. I realized this and started flipping the switch at will. I would just turn off my brain whenever it felt like my thoughts were going to drive me to the brink of madness. I would smoke a joint and game or I'd find a new obsession; but I'd always go fumbling for the switch.
Now I'm starting to wonder if it was wise of me to go flipping a switch I know so little of. I returned to find my switch broken. It's locked on, ON and despite my best efforts, it stays that way. I don't know how it broke, or why it broke, or even if I broke it. I just know that there's no escaping this... my new consciousness :-)
Maybe it is for the best that I no longer have control over the switch. I still wish I could turn off my brain, but at what cost? I'd rather have a switch stuck ON than OFF. Even if it means I'll spend the rest of my life in this insomniac nightmare.
Many times throughout my life, I have caught myself with a strong desire to turn off my brain. Luckilly, there is a switch that puts of thinking mode. The downside is, we don't have direct control over this switch. Only indirect control.
This switch can be flipped indirectly by doing an activity that would produce such a result. These activities - for myself at least - include smoking weed, playing computer games, sleep, listening to music and obsession... oddly enough. I realized this and started flipping the switch at will. I would just turn off my brain whenever it felt like my thoughts were going to drive me to the brink of madness. I would smoke a joint and game or I'd find a new obsession; but I'd always go fumbling for the switch.
Now I'm starting to wonder if it was wise of me to go flipping a switch I know so little of. I returned to find my switch broken. It's locked on, ON and despite my best efforts, it stays that way. I don't know how it broke, or why it broke, or even if I broke it. I just know that there's no escaping this... my new consciousness :-)
Maybe it is for the best that I no longer have control over the switch. I still wish I could turn off my brain, but at what cost? I'd rather have a switch stuck ON than OFF. Even if it means I'll spend the rest of my life in this insomniac nightmare.
