I Hate My Mother

I don't think I can live with her anymore. She's on my case all the time. I can never do anything right. She never shows any affection for me. Anything I do wrong - even the smallest things - are exaggerated and used against me. I have a job that's well paying but I'm not giving her enough of it even when I hand over hundreds to her.

My brother on the other hand... Was on drugs for a year, got into over £11,000 worth of debt which she paid off in full and he then went on to get into more debt. He eats everything in the house, leaving no food for anyone else, keeps everyone up at night listening to music. He doesn't have a stable job and pays nothing into the household.

You can't criticise him though. He's a "work in progress" and I'm just a failure in her eyes. Someone she can get angry with. I'm punished for doing the right thing.

I wonder if she'd love me if I started taking drugs. If I started getting into debt.

I don't care anymore. If she doesn't love me or care about me that's fine. One day I'll move out and have nothing to do with her. My brother will live with her for the rest of his life, making hers more miserable.

She'll look back one day and realise she's mistreated me. When she's realised, she's more than welcome to apologise and I'll accept it.