I Am A Victim Of Emotional Abuse And Verbal Abuse

I am still coming to terms with it but soon I will finally be divorced from my wife. She was a emotionaly abusive alcoholic. Its been 7 months since I kicked her out of the house and its been an emotional roller coaster. No part of me wants her back but still struggling to deal with it all. Have some ups and a lot of downs. Only been in two serious relationships however both were abusive yet this one was by far the worst.