I Miss My Ex
It's pretty hard to get over someone you gave 17 years to. We gave each other hell especially during the final years of the relationship. I guess I should have known something was up the moment he started flaking out on me. I thought he was using drugs again because we did have a huge blowout over that. Just someone else he was seeing. My replacement. For a point in time I was wicked mad at the poor 18 year old kid he had picked up. I wanted to kick his ass but it wasn't all his fault. Someday that kid will feel how I felt and still kind of feel. He will realize that he wasted his time on someone who will make you feel special for a little while until you get too old and get thrown away.
When gay marriage was legalized I was excited. I thought we could finally get married and make it all official. I did call him my hubby for a long time. He told me no and when I asked why he never gave me a real answer. That hurt my feelings big time. Made me think am I that terrible? Embarassed to say to others you are married to me?
Makes me wonder how he really felt about me the whole time. I still want to punch him whenever I see him floating around. I might even buy him a drink and wave at him from across the bar just because.
When gay marriage was legalized I was excited. I thought we could finally get married and make it all official. I did call him my hubby for a long time. He told me no and when I asked why he never gave me a real answer. That hurt my feelings big time. Made me think am I that terrible? Embarassed to say to others you are married to me?
Makes me wonder how he really felt about me the whole time. I still want to punch him whenever I see him floating around. I might even buy him a drink and wave at him from across the bar just because.
