I Say Today Is Not My Day

Today is not my day and I'm starting to wonder how much longer this will continue. I'm so over waking up and regretting what isn't. I'm grateful for my lovely home, family and friends...but I feel worthless and useless to everyone. I expect so much for myself and just want to know if it's worth going forward with creating visions/vision boards, new goals, a more positive attitude. For what? Nothing even matters.