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So, I came across a post on here about narcissists and their aftereffects.

That would explain so much about myself, since it seems like my mother is a (bit of a) narcissist. She always plays the victim and hurls abuse when nobody's around, blaming me and my siblings (although I'm the one who usually gets screamed at) for her being stressed, and just generally have to be an emotional/verbal punching bag should I do even one thing slightly "wrong" by her arbitrary standards or if she just isn't in a jovial mood. I've never felt like I fit into the world, like I don't understand it and it doesn't understand me - nor does it seem to want to. But I guess there would be other explanations for it too.

But above all else, I fear becoming like her. I know I'm broken, probably beyond any sort of repair, and I feel like I'm too self-centred (hence the interminable use of 'I').

It's unlikely that anyone will actually read this, which is fine. I don't expect anyone to actually do so. Being here is to vent in posts like this, after all.

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4meAndyou · F

Fear of becoming just like a narcissist parent has motivated many of us to work hard throughout our lives to become better, and different.

Every time I wanted to put my child on a diet, I would remember my years as a child, not getting enough to eat, and being hungry all the time.

ALMOST every time I wanted to slap my child or hit him, I restrained myself, remembering my own terror.

But most of all, remembering how my mother used to like to tear me down and try to make me feel inferior, I spent my time trying to build my son's self esteem, making him see his wonderful qualities and telling him of my pride in his accomplishments.

Do not fear becoming like her. Instead, fear the mistakes you are likely to make in your desperation to get away from her.