I Have Schizoaffective Disorder

I have schizoaffective disorder, and I don't know if it's my disorder, or if I am still being hounded by the wolves. A group of undercovers who hired a psychic to spread the sickest dirt on me, half truths and down right lies, it's gross, like it will make anybody hate me, and think of me as the sickest of sicko's based on what they accuse me of, they single handedly turned my old family doctor against me a few years ago, and now they are working overtime to do the same to my new family doctor. And it's hard.....I can't bring it up to her without her remaining silent, she won't tell me the truth....The truth is that a group of cooks at rehab spilled the beans and then said that they were supposed to remain silent for fear of upsetting the investigation, this is not a real investigation, like who uses a phychic to get their information? Because that's where they get ALL of their information. It's dirty, it's vile, it's gross, it's a lie! And it's all pinned on me, and I just go on about my buisness and suffer silently alone, wondering if what I heard was them or if I am still hearing voices in my head or not, nobody will admit nothing, unlike the few who have come clean throughout the years and told me that yes I am under investigation all these 18 years of it.....It's really discouraging, depressing, and pointless why they have unleashed satans mouthpiece on the people behind my back to get everyone to oppress me and turn on me.......I have but one comforter, the holy spirit, and a host of heavenly Angels who sing holy holy holy, and tell me that I am beautiful, and loved. But my husband thinks that that's part of my illness, he thinks that religion has made me sick hearing angelic voices, so he sent me to rehab for 6 months while he went on vacation in Mexico with the kids without me like the jerk he is, yes he has fallen out of love with me, he thinks that I am taking him for a free ride, he doesn't know it's impossible for me to get a job without the wolves interfearing and causing my bosses and coworkers to hate me and abuse me....I work hard and do my best and am kind to all and I still get singled out and bullied off the job....It sucks.