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I Have Schizoaffective Disorder

In my real life I tell everybody that I have schizoaffective disorder....but other than telling them that I hear angels singing...I don't tell them how I think, or about my real symptoms like I do on here because they'll think I'm crazy....Even when I experience the holy spirit I am told to shut up so I keep it to myself....I hide my point of view because I blame the devil and nobody believes in the devil.....I can't talk about it because they will stop being my friend.

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Paliglass · 41-45, F

Schitzo effective disorder, I was told and read, is shitzophrenic symptoms induced by stress.

Shitzophrenic symptoms are hearing voices outside of one's self. You would hear the voices the same as if a person standing next to you is talking and not inside the mind.

So if these voices are inside your head then it is not schizophrenic symptoms.

These are voices inside the mind created by your own thoughts and effectively your inner voices.

If you are indeed hearing voices as if it's a person standing next to you or near you then it is schizophrenic symptoms.

Pfuzylogic · M

@Paliglass
That sounds totally on target.
Did you major in Psychology?

Paliglass · 41-45, F

@Pfuzylogic I studied counselling and psychotherapy at college for a few years. Did alot of personal reading out of interest due to having my own issues. Was wrongly diagnosed with many things including shitzo effective disorder.

I said to the doctor can't I just be neurotic but apparently it doesn't work like that lol.

Anyway due to lots of research and therapy and a very good psychiatrist I have been medication free for many years. I decided that a helping profession could be detrimental to my own mental wellbeing even though I found it very interesting and was told I could be very good at it. I have to put my children first so I couldn't risk that listening and facilitating people working through their own trauma could cause me break down. That's why I discovered things I find relaxing like cleaning and mechanics.

My aim is to work as a mechanic in a local garage that offers work placement to people who have had difficult times because then I get to help in a small way be teaching them a bit of mechanics but without having to listen to their trauma or difficulties. If that doesn't work out I will go for building up my cleaning business. But the problem is whenever I think about doing anything I always try to work in a way that I get to help people because that's what I most want to do. So I dream about a cleaning business but where I mostly help other women who are struggling in some way set up their own cleaning business lol. I just can't get that money motivated. I see being in a direct helping profession as not feasible given that I have had my own issues because I must put maintaining my own mental stability first especially because of my children.

Anyway the answer to your question is yes and no. Yes i have had some formal training and qualification in the area of psychology but alot of it was just personal studies so I could help myself.

Pfuzylogic · M

@Paliglass I graduated with Liberal Studies as my major for my Undergraduate degree with a lot of advanced psychology courses filling my requirements as well as Sociology.
Where the rubber hit the road was teaching High School so we seem very similar in background.

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