I Have Schizoaffective Disorder

My demons have costed two people their lives.....A demon once told me to look forward to meeting God, and I shared my message with my suicidal sister, she committed suicide a week later, and I always felt like maybe she thought she had to be dead to meet God when the bible clearly says that God is not a God of the dead but of the living! The second time was when I was at church and the spirit of Jezebel leaped out of me and onto the pastor a week later he died from a massive heart attack, but not before telling his wife That I gave him the spirit of Jezebel which I believed stressed the old man out so much. I did not kill these people satan did.