I Believe That There Are Different Types of Love
Just when I think I have experienced every type of love imaginable the Universe throws me a curve ball.
My first love of course was for my Parents and extended family, some more then others mind you. Then came my love for animals and music. I always had an animal sleep with me since I can remember. As a child and my mother said I would crawl up to our floor speakers in the house and rock back and forth to the rhythm of the beat.
As I grew so did my love for friends, teachers, mentors, reading, knowledge and wisdom and still grows everyday.
Then I met my first love. They call it the first for a very good reason because there is no other love that matches it. It opens a door to a whole different level of love. I can truly say I was in love with this man and experienced IN Love for the first time. Unfortunately, I lost him to Desert Storm which catapulted me into one bad decision to another as far as love interests go as I was looking for that First Love feeling again. I didn't learn until quite some time later that I wouldn't find the First Love feeling again...but I could experience In Love.
One of those bad decisions actually turned out not bad because I had 3 wonderful sons and was blessed to feel a Mother's Love from the aspect of being one. A Love I cherish and grows everyday as well.
After my divorce I had to find out that I needed to find another kind of love. One up to that point I really had not experienced because I was always in a co-dependent relationship up to that point. First with my parents, then my First love, then another Poly relationship, then of course my husband. That love was a love for myself. I had to be alone for awhile. Become independent and explore the love I needed to give myself. To find out what it was exactly I was looking for and what I wanted out of life. I truly believe all the lonely people in this world missed this step. That is why they are so lonely and go from one bad relationship to another. But I digress.
So what kind of love did the Universe throw at me this time that totally took me back? True Love. Just when I thought fairy tales didn't exist the Universe proved me wrong once again. When the Universe proves to you that two souls where meant to be together no matter what the cost they find a way to make it work. When you read their words and can feel them. When you hear their voice you're there no matter the distance. When you look into their eyes the world stops around them. When every song has some sort of meaning. When they touch you your heart stops and you never want that to end. When they profess their love, commitment and trust in you it fills you with so much pride you want to scream it from the mountain tops because you know its true. When you finally let go of all your hurt and let down your walls you have build up for so long down and give that to them in total trust that they will protect and take care of it... it is the single most freeing and relieved feeling in the world because you know that he will. True Love does exist.
I met mine. I actually met him some time ago and I am pretty certain we both knew then we were both to afraid to let that go and the Universe said No it is not time yet. We have recently just found each other again and I will fight to the death to keep this Man in my life in any capacity because he just makes it so much better. That my friends is True Love to me.
My first love of course was for my Parents and extended family, some more then others mind you. Then came my love for animals and music. I always had an animal sleep with me since I can remember. As a child and my mother said I would crawl up to our floor speakers in the house and rock back and forth to the rhythm of the beat.
As I grew so did my love for friends, teachers, mentors, reading, knowledge and wisdom and still grows everyday.
Then I met my first love. They call it the first for a very good reason because there is no other love that matches it. It opens a door to a whole different level of love. I can truly say I was in love with this man and experienced IN Love for the first time. Unfortunately, I lost him to Desert Storm which catapulted me into one bad decision to another as far as love interests go as I was looking for that First Love feeling again. I didn't learn until quite some time later that I wouldn't find the First Love feeling again...but I could experience In Love.
One of those bad decisions actually turned out not bad because I had 3 wonderful sons and was blessed to feel a Mother's Love from the aspect of being one. A Love I cherish and grows everyday as well.
After my divorce I had to find out that I needed to find another kind of love. One up to that point I really had not experienced because I was always in a co-dependent relationship up to that point. First with my parents, then my First love, then another Poly relationship, then of course my husband. That love was a love for myself. I had to be alone for awhile. Become independent and explore the love I needed to give myself. To find out what it was exactly I was looking for and what I wanted out of life. I truly believe all the lonely people in this world missed this step. That is why they are so lonely and go from one bad relationship to another. But I digress.
So what kind of love did the Universe throw at me this time that totally took me back? True Love. Just when I thought fairy tales didn't exist the Universe proved me wrong once again. When the Universe proves to you that two souls where meant to be together no matter what the cost they find a way to make it work. When you read their words and can feel them. When you hear their voice you're there no matter the distance. When you look into their eyes the world stops around them. When every song has some sort of meaning. When they touch you your heart stops and you never want that to end. When they profess their love, commitment and trust in you it fills you with so much pride you want to scream it from the mountain tops because you know its true. When you finally let go of all your hurt and let down your walls you have build up for so long down and give that to them in total trust that they will protect and take care of it... it is the single most freeing and relieved feeling in the world because you know that he will. True Love does exist.
I met mine. I actually met him some time ago and I am pretty certain we both knew then we were both to afraid to let that go and the Universe said No it is not time yet. We have recently just found each other again and I will fight to the death to keep this Man in my life in any capacity because he just makes it so much better. That my friends is True Love to me.
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