I Hurt Myself

I realized something. I realized that I can't come to my dad's expectation of wanting me to act my age. I have tried so hard to do it, but end up doing myself more harm then good. I struggled, got more stressed, and lead myself to be unhappy. If I did succeed I would only be making my dad happy, not me. I want to be happy and my happiness is more important then the expectation. I never could act like a teen, mainly because I'm not really a teen-mentally that is. If I stay a child for a life time then i should get to enjoy it. I think it would be a good idea to finally open up to what toys I would want to have. Or at least see if I can buy one with my walmart gift card. But I do know there are other things that I can do to make my dad happy. I got a good grade for english 9, that's a start right there. And I was happy for that as well.