I Am Letting Go And Moving On

It took me a long time to finally understand what I've always known. It really is true that knowing and understanding is quite different. I realized that it's time to let go. I can't stay like this forever or I'll end up destroying myself. That's why I'm letting go of any lingering attachments to my friends. But it doesn't mean that I'll hate them or anything. I'll still love them. But not as much as I did before. I loved them too much that I left almost nothing to myself. I'm severing my ties with them to build a new one. One that would not hurt me anymore. If they can't bear it, then I guess it just meant that we weren't really friends to begin with. That they were only taking of my kindness in the first place. But even if that happens, I can never hate them. I guess I just wasn't really made to hate people for a long time. In the end, I'll forgive them...as long as they don't hurt the people important to me without a valid reason.
I'm going to move forward. I'm tired of staying in just the same place and forcing myself to chase their shadows...forcing myself to grow up just so that I won't get left behind. From now on, I'll move forward, looking back only to learn from the past and not to regret anything anymore. I'll probably get hurt more in the future. But I'm going to keep on moving...until I find that which my heart seeks...until it is my time to part from this world.