I Am Depressed and Always Have Been
Those lies made me believe you were the best person in the world ... The best person I could ever ask for. But it was all too good to be true.
Why would you lie to me and trick me into believing you were this fictitious, amazing person? Why would you lie to me in the beginning of the relationship? You said you were scared I wouldn't give you a chance, yet you're implying that I should leave? What do you want from me?? Now that you've taken my first moments, my first everything, you hit me with the "if you can't accept me for who I am, then I'm not the person for you". What do you want me to do? I cannot simply walk away because you have already made me so attached to you, and now you're playing with my heartstrings as if it were a violin. You're stringing me along with your glittering words, which turns meaningless in a flick of an eye. The last thing I want to do is regret saying "yes" when you've asked me out, and the last thing I want to do is regret being with you. You were right - if you told me you were not a great person in the first place, and that you weren't 100% committed, I wouldn't have given you a chance in the first place. Now I'm in the midst of a desolated forest - all alone and confused.
Why would you lie to me and trick me into believing you were this fictitious, amazing person? Why would you lie to me in the beginning of the relationship? You said you were scared I wouldn't give you a chance, yet you're implying that I should leave? What do you want from me?? Now that you've taken my first moments, my first everything, you hit me with the "if you can't accept me for who I am, then I'm not the person for you". What do you want me to do? I cannot simply walk away because you have already made me so attached to you, and now you're playing with my heartstrings as if it were a violin. You're stringing me along with your glittering words, which turns meaningless in a flick of an eye. The last thing I want to do is regret saying "yes" when you've asked me out, and the last thing I want to do is regret being with you. You were right - if you told me you were not a great person in the first place, and that you weren't 100% committed, I wouldn't have given you a chance in the first place. Now I'm in the midst of a desolated forest - all alone and confused.
