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Itsjustbrit I know that my situation is different to yours, but I have had to learn to accept help over the past 5 years because a decline in my health means that I am physically unable to do things like the weekly shop without it making me sick for days afterwards.
My choice is that I either accept help or I do it myself and spend the rest of the week in bed because of the pain I'm in. From what I'm reading, it seems to me that your situation isn't much different in that you either accept this help or you lose your son.
Are our situations something to be ashamed of??? I think not!!! If you need this help and can find it, then the only people who should be ashamed are the ones who judge you for needing it - especially if they haven't walked a mile in your shoes and seen what it feels like from your angle as a mother who is trying to do the best that she can for her child.