I Need to Find the Strength to Leave Him

I do...but when I leave it won't be because of him....it will be for me...my problem is I love him...but I'm loosing myself in him...its not good...not when I do the work...the trying...the understanding... I can not carry this marriage alone... but I'm scared...terrified... of what may be out there...I just gotta find my strength...it will happen...one day I'll just know its time...when I can't take being just a fixture in the house any longer.....I'll know its time to go..