Only logged in members can reply and interact with the post.
Join SimilarWorlds for FREE »

I Feel Useless

I live a rather pathetic existence, I spend the vast majority of my time alone, my entire life is wrapped up in my work. I drive a truck, it is a ceaseless, never-ending quest to get enough miles every week to pay my bills. I have seen pretty much every major highway in this country and the days all run together anymore, nothing really changes. The job I do requires no intelligence as evidenced by myself and the majority of those who do this job, quite the opposite actually, this job requires a level of ignorance sufficient to make it impossible to acquire a real job that would pay enough. I could teach anyone to do this job in a week. What I cannot teach is how to deal with the loneliness. The feeling that I am not needed or wanted by anyone. The feeling that many people out there hate me even though they have never met me. The traveling public, the police, the customers I haul for and the customers I deliver to all seem to have a disdain for me and those who do my job. After typing this I realize it is not really the proper group for this but hell, I have already typed it all out and I am not going to go and find a group that says, "Truck driving sucks" or something like that, I guess I just needed to vent a little. Some days are harder than others when you spend weeks at a time away from loved ones and realize that as much as I care for them and as much as they say they care about me, life goes on without me, everyone I know has a life and enjoys their life with or without me being involved in it in any way. I am happy for them but I am also jealous of them. Any way my rant is complete now and I am going to bed.
Cooper802Forever · 22-25, M
Hi i read your post, I'm sorry you feel this way. I wanted to let you know though that there's a reason your on this planet, there's a reason your life has lead you to this point, and there is a reason why you feel this way. This feeling sure is not a good one, but this does not mean this feeling cannot lead you down a great path, a new journey, a realization, an epiphany. You just have to think where this feeling will lead you, perhaps take on a hobby, make a new friend, help a person out in an area you're familiar with,(Life advice, experiences you gone through, ect.)

Your story never ends, and there exists plenty of stories that are happening or that have already happened! So take a page or two out someone else's and maybe see what you can find that can broaden your horizons, and open your eyes to the world that is playing around you right now. As you may not think this, but people are waiting to hear yours...you're not alone.

Feel free to message me when your not feeling to good and would just like to chat.

With love ❤ Cooper802Forever
There was a book called "Blue Highways" about traveling across the U.S. start a journal, I know you have met some interesting people on the road, remember EVERYONE has a story. Also, if it weren't for you guys, we would be without the things we take for granted so I thank you for what you do!🥰
Doomflower · 36-40, M
Sorry you're feeling this way. I wish there were some advice or assistance I could offer.
🤨 you spend too much tome alone.You forgot that you matter.

 
Post Comment