I Want to Be Confident In My Decisions

But a lot of times, I'm afraid to be, because I worry being 'confident' just means closing yourself off to the possibility you could always be wrong. For example, if I were to act confident in the belief that God exists, that would mean that I was ignoring the possibility he might not exist. We evolve every day, no truth is always certain, and I don't want to miss anything just because I had assumed I knew enough at the time.

So I would like to just get good at feigning confidence when I need to, so that people can't take advantage of me at the same time. I don't actually care about being confident. I just care about being left alone while I try to figure all these strange happenings out.