I Am Lonely

I'm tired. I haven't used this site in a long time, but here I am. Why? Because I'm lonely. Like really and truely lonely.

I want a friend who truly knows me. I don't feel like anyone in my life does, I don't feel like anyone Ive ever met online does. ONly person who has ever comes close was my ex but we broke up almost 6 months ago.

I suck at meeting people in person. I have friends, I talk to people, but we never get beyond shallow conversations. They never really get to know the real me. They have this "image" of me. Like I'm the grown up version of a "choir boy". They don't know the shit Ive dealt with, or continue to deal with. And truth is I Don't think they want to.

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greenmountaingal · 70-79, F

It takes a long time for people to get to know the real you. And some luck for it to turn into that rare thing, true friendship. My own belief is that people are fortunate indeed to have even one real, true long term friend.

Specialyouare · 31-35, F

I share many of your same feelings, except that I kinda prefer to be alone due to the fact that people have betrayed their trust to me far too many times. I feel like people are always trying to use me and that at disagreeing or saying no all I get is their contempt. I’d rather sit at home than go out there pretending to be someone I’m not. But I get it. It does feel lonely. But perhaps we need to learn to embrace our loneliness as the precious time we truly get to know ourselves without fear of the deception of another.

Platoscave · F

I myself have screwed up just about every potential friendship I ever had. I have loved someone all my life..whom I have never seen in person. But when I have a real chance I fail.

Friendship is the crowning glory of deeper successes. Maybe I just never had any of that either.

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