I Feel Terrible

Yesterday I literally stabbed my brother and caused him grave injury, he never laid charges but instead forgave me. I regret allowing my anger escalating into violence, I just can't seem to control myself at times. We had a heated argument and he never knows when to stop attacking on personal sensitive issues yet he knows how temperamental I get. Now am ashamed of going to visit at home coz I'll face him, although he told me it's cool he never told anyone. He also asked me to notify him each time am visiting home so he can ask his girlfriend to stay at bay making me feel like an animal. The sad part is that he is my older brother!😥