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I Feel Terrible

Yesterday I literally stabbed my brother and caused him grave injury, he never laid charges but instead forgave me. I regret allowing my anger escalating into violence, I just can't seem to control myself at times. We had a heated argument and he never knows when to stop attacking on personal sensitive issues yet he knows how temperamental I get. Now am ashamed of going to visit at home coz I'll face him, although he told me it's cool he never told anyone. He also asked me to notify him each time am visiting home so he can ask his girlfriend to stay at bay making me feel like an animal. The sad part is that he is my older brother!😥

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TheWitness · 36-40, F

I have never done anything like this, but I know what it's like to lose control of your emotions. It can feel like you're the only person in the world that loses it the way you do. It's humiliating, and you do feel shit about yourself. But remember that you are influenced by everything, and you aren't incontrol of your subconscious or your hormones. It can be next to impossible to control anger on your own. Don't be afraid to rely on people. Heavily if need be.
Don't feel bad about any precautions that need to be taken. You may be an animal, but that is because you are human. We're all animals, not just you.

calmingeffect · 26-30, F

🤗Thanks for the comforting words

TheWitness · 36-40, F

@calmingeffect: any time ☺

Gh0s1

You ever spoken to anyone about anger issues? i don't like calling it that but yeah, if you've gotten to the point of gravely injuring a family member then i'd really suggest taking some steps to dealing with it.

Gh0s1

Like, you avoided it this time and got really lucky about your brother in both ways, but just take this as the sign you need to change..your bro could be dead and you could be in jail right now : | if its someone else later then you might not get so lucky next time.

calmingeffect · 26-30, F

I know I got anger issues but haven't been successful in anger programs either.

Gh0s1

Ah right, have you tried CBT before?. Cognitive behavioural therapy, its finding triggers for thoughts and emotions and changing them, thus changing the pathways you take in the brain. So its changing your first response to something else. Its an option anyway if you want to look into it.