I Im Confused

I wish i could read minds but i cant. I want more then anything to understand. I want to scream at you, so you can hear me. If i could smack some sense into you i would. I can't your not here. You choose to make yourself misriable. Put yourself in a horrible place. You send mixed messages, ignore me, shut me out then suddenly you pull me back in. Its not just my mind your playing with its my heart too. I dont sleep i cant eat my mind is a mess. I have no answers no one to help me figure you out. The worst part about it is deep in my heart i know this is not a game to you its as real to you as it is to me i need answers. I have no clue what to do.