I Lie to Myself

A Place Called Denial... I lie to myself on a daily basis. It's how I manage to hold it together no matter what happens. I tell myself that I'm the smartest, prettiest most awesome person I can be, but I know that's not true. The more I think about it, the more parts of me I find that I hate. So I pretend to adore myself. I don't do it to fool others... their opinions are insignificant. I do it to fool myself, because I can't stand the thought of hating myself. But I do. I believe this is called Denial.

So I keep feeding this massive fake Ego... Telling myself just how great I am and how much I love myself. But it's only me I'm lying to. At least I can recognize and accept that I'm in denial. But I'm quite happy to stay like this. It gets me through the day. It might be pathetic but if it works, it works.