I Am An Ex-stripper

I stripped from 7 years. Im pregnant now. I live with my bf n his family i miss my old life. My old body. The money. My apartment. Options. Im 28. I working on renewing my nurses aide lincese and me n my bf r saving up to get pur own place. Hes an recovering heroin addict. His family r amazing n supportive. My bf is immature n emotionally abusive. I expressed numerous time i want to leave him if he does lnt treat me better n we can have 50/50 custody of our unborn son. He then apologizes and i forgive him. But its just a repeated cycle of disrespect n hostility. I miss my old life.