I Get Lost In My Thoughts Sometimes
I need your thoughts , opinions and analysis on the below conversation.. is there something between the lines? Is there any clues ? What did you conclude????
Mo, 12:02 AM
I'm sorry I missed you =/
Mo, 12:03 AM
Love you Sof
Lavender, 12:14 AM
It’s ok
Mo, 12:39 AM
Sorry, was buying something
Mo, 12:40 AM
So what are you up to Sof?
Lavender, 12:40 AM
Nothing much
Lavender, 12:41 AM
Listening to music and laying on bed
Mo, 12:42 AM
Mmm... wish I could lay they there with you
Lavender, 12:43 AM
Your at work ?
Mo, 12:45 AM
yes, atm
Mo, 12:46 AM
not much work today though
Lavender, 12:47 AM
Did you know that I waited for you yesterday
Mo, 12:48 AM
I'm sorry, I've run out of sleep medicine and so havnt gotten much rest
Mo, 12:49 AM
thats what I was buying
Lavender, 12:50 AM
Sam
Mo, 12:50 AM
Yes?
Lavender, 12:50 AM
Remember when I called you while your on your break?
Mo, 12:51 AM
youve called a few times when I was on break
Mo, 12:51 AM
you mean when I was driving home from the doctor?
Lavender, 12:51 AM
No
Lavender, 12:52 AM
The last call was when your on your break or something
Lavender, 12:52 AM
Said your going home soon
Mo, 12:52 AM
Yeah, I was driving home
Lavender, 12:52 AM
Remember that?
Lavender, 12:53 AM
Remember what you said to me ?
Mo, 12:53 AM
that I love you?
Mo, 12:54 AM
Im so sorry...please remind me?
Lavender, 12:54 AM
You said your going back home and be online
Lavender, 12:54 AM
I just waited
Mo, 12:55 AM
I was online
Mo, 12:55 AM
we talked
Lavender, 12:55 AM
When?
Lavender, 12:55 AM
We didn’t
Lavender, 12:55 AM
You where online but we never spoke
Lavender, 12:55 AM
I am sorry
Mo, 12:56 AM
I dont remember that... if you were online I would have msged you
Mo, 12:57 AM
I love talking to you
Lavender, 12:57 AM
I know but you didn’t
Lavender, 12:57 AM
Anyway
Lavender, 12:57 AM
Am going to bed
Mo, 12:57 AM
im very sorry Sof
Lavender, 12:57 AM
So good night
Mo, 12:57 AM
Skype has been wierd lately
Mo, 12:58 AM
wait
Mo, 12:58 AM
youre going to sleep now?
Lavender, 12:58 AM
Yes
Mo, 12:58 AM
Sof
Mo, 12:58 AM
I'm so sorry
Lavender, 12:59 AM
It’s okay
Mo, 12:59 AM
this sleep medicine interferes with my memory
Mo, 1:00 AM
I was hoping we could at least talk...are you really tired?
Mo, 1:01 AM
Youre gone...
Mo, 1:01 AM
I'm sorry Sof
Lavender, 1:03 AM
I am tired
Mo, 1:03 AM
please forgive me Sof
Lavender, 1:04 AM
You don’t need to be sorry and you don’t need to ask forgiveness
Mo, 1:04 AM
I need you Sof
Mo, 1:04 AM
I'm so depressed
Lavender, 1:04 AM
You’ll be fine
Mo, 1:05 AM
i hope so...
Mo, 1:05 AM
I DO remember talking to you yesterday
Mo, 1:06 AM
well
Mo, 1:06 AM
Today youre time, I guess
Mo, 1:08 AM
I love you Sof
Lavender, 1:10 AM
3:26 pm your time is when I called
Lavender, 1:11 AM
Spoke for 3 mints and 25 seconds
Lavender, 1:11 AM
That’s 3 : 26 am my time
Lavender, 1:11 AM
And I haven’t slept
Mo, 1:12 AM
yes, I think the call broke up
Lavender, 1:12 AM
No it didn’t..
Lavender, 1:12 AM
Anyway
Lavender, 1:12 AM
Just wanted to let you know I waited
Mo, 1:12 AM
what happened then?
Mo, 1:13 AM
Sof I feel horrible now
Lavender, 1:13 AM
You said your on a break and leaving to go home .. you’ll be online then
Lavender, 1:13 AM
I don’t want you to feel forced into doing anything
Mo, 1:14 AM
I want to talk to you
Lavender, 1:14 AM
It just made me realize things
Mo, 1:14 AM
I love hearing youre voice
Mo, 1:14 AM
like?
Lavender, 1:15 AM
I don’t like getting attached
Lavender, 1:15 AM
It’s not healthy
Lavender, 1:16 AM
And since I waited I just realized maybe what your feeling is different than mine
Mo, 1:16 AM
Sof... I'm already attached... I love you
Mo, 1:16 AM
Please give me another chance...
Lavender, 1:17 AM
Sam it’s not about chances
Mo, 1:17 AM
What do you want me to do Sof?
Mo, 1:17 AM
I cant change the past
Lavender, 1:17 AM
I don’t want you to do anything
Mo, 1:18 AM
...are you going to disappear again?
Mo, 1:18 AM
because
Mo, 1:18 AM
I can't take that...over and over
Lavender, 1:18 AM
Take What ?
Mo, 1:19 AM
think about the good times you and i have had]
Mo, 1:20 AM
I cant take you disappearing
Mo, 1:20 AM
it hurts
Mo, 1:22 AM
You said you loved me too...
Lavender, 1:23 AM
Sam what am trying to say is that I waited for you because you said you’ll be there .. and when I saw you online I haven’t seen a msg from you and that’s not you ... Even if ur not online or away you usually leave something ... but when I saw you there and never wanted to msg you back because I knew you where not waiting .... and who am I to ask you to ? I did hated myself for those mints
Mo, 1:24 AM
Sof, I'm always online
Mo, 1:25 AM
You can always call or msg me
Lavender, 1:25 AM
I didn
Lavender, 1:25 AM
But when I do I never do it again
Mo, 1:25 AM
Why?
Lavender, 1:26 AM
Because if you want to answer those calls or reply back you would
Lavender, 1:26 AM
I won’t bug
Mo, 1:26 AM
Sof if you leave...im going to be shattered
Lavender, 1:26 AM
I won’t clench
Lavender, 1:27 AM
The attachment is already killing me
Lavender, 1:27 AM
But do you know what that means ?
Mo, 1:27 AM
We dont have to be romantic if you dont want to, I just want you as a friend
Mo, 1:27 AM
more if thats what you want
Lavender, 1:28 AM
You tell me what you want
Mo, 1:28 AM
but please dont leave me again
Lavender, 1:28 AM
Am not leaving
Lavender, 1:28 AM
Am asking you
Lavender, 1:28 AM
What do you want
Mo, 1:28 AM
I want to feel close to you
Lavender, 1:29 AM
What does that mean ?
Mo, 1:29 AM
just what it sounds like... I love talking to you
Mo, 1:30 AM
Sof...
Lavender, 1:31 AM
Yes I love you and am getting attached and that can’t not be erased and undone .. but do you feel the same way? Or is it a phase ?
Mo, 1:31 AM
if you dont want to talk to me anymore because I made a mistake...
Mo, 1:31 AM
No
Lavender, 1:31 AM
Sam what was the mistake that you made ?
Mo, 1:31 AM
its not
Mo, 1:32 AM
absoutely not
Mamono, 1:33 AM
"Love" is not a word I take lightly
Lavender, 1:33 AM
That how it felt like to me
Lavender, 1:33 AM
You left me hanging made me question myself
Mo, 1:33 AM
I am sorry, I never meant to make you feel that way
Lavender, 1:34 AM
And am not angry at you or upset
Lavender, 1:34 AM
I am just angry at myself
Mo, 1:34 AM
You should be angry at me
Mo, 1:34 AM
it was my fault
Lavender, 1:34 AM
Am not that person Sam who gets angry and fight
Lavender, 1:34 AM
I question myself for what ever happens
Lavender, 1:35 AM
Am a critical thinker
Lavender, 1:35 AM
Am an analytical person
Mo, 1:35 AM
It was my fault, and I'm so sorry
Mo, 1:35 AM
I know you are
Lavender, 1:36 AM
And when something happens I don’t blame anyone but myself for maybe understanding things wrong
Mo, 1:36 AM
you shouldnt blame yourself for something thats my fault
Lavender, 1:36 AM
I never cried for a long time
Mo, 1:37 AM
Sof...
Lavender, 1:37 AM
But I did few hours ago
Mo, 1:37 AM
its lunch time... im going to step out to my car
Lavender, 1:37 AM
I know we are 12 hours apart
Mo, 1:38 AM
okay
Lavender, 1:38 AM
And I know that I get so attached to a point where I can’t easily let go
Mo, 1:38 AM
You dont have to
Lavender, 1:38 AM
And with attachment comes disappointment
Mo, 1:39 AM
no
Mo, 1:39 AM
not always
Mo, 1:40 AM
with attachment comes two people getting closer
Mo, 1:42 AM
did you get that call?
Lavender, 1:43 AM
Yes
Lavender, 1:43 AM
My vpn was off
Lavender, 1:43 AM
Without it being on. The calls breaks
Mo, 1:44 AM
ohh I see
Mo, 1:45 AM
maybe try calling me?
And the Call end at 3:24am
Mo, 12:02 AM
I'm sorry I missed you =/
Mo, 12:03 AM
Love you Sof
Lavender, 12:14 AM
It’s ok
Mo, 12:39 AM
Sorry, was buying something
Mo, 12:40 AM
So what are you up to Sof?
Lavender, 12:40 AM
Nothing much
Lavender, 12:41 AM
Listening to music and laying on bed
Mo, 12:42 AM
Mmm... wish I could lay they there with you
Lavender, 12:43 AM
Your at work ?
Mo, 12:45 AM
yes, atm
Mo, 12:46 AM
not much work today though
Lavender, 12:47 AM
Did you know that I waited for you yesterday
Mo, 12:48 AM
I'm sorry, I've run out of sleep medicine and so havnt gotten much rest
Mo, 12:49 AM
thats what I was buying
Lavender, 12:50 AM
Sam
Mo, 12:50 AM
Yes?
Lavender, 12:50 AM
Remember when I called you while your on your break?
Mo, 12:51 AM
youve called a few times when I was on break
Mo, 12:51 AM
you mean when I was driving home from the doctor?
Lavender, 12:51 AM
No
Lavender, 12:52 AM
The last call was when your on your break or something
Lavender, 12:52 AM
Said your going home soon
Mo, 12:52 AM
Yeah, I was driving home
Lavender, 12:52 AM
Remember that?
Lavender, 12:53 AM
Remember what you said to me ?
Mo, 12:53 AM
that I love you?
Mo, 12:54 AM
Im so sorry...please remind me?
Lavender, 12:54 AM
You said your going back home and be online
Lavender, 12:54 AM
I just waited
Mo, 12:55 AM
I was online
Mo, 12:55 AM
we talked
Lavender, 12:55 AM
When?
Lavender, 12:55 AM
We didn’t
Lavender, 12:55 AM
You where online but we never spoke
Lavender, 12:55 AM
I am sorry
Mo, 12:56 AM
I dont remember that... if you were online I would have msged you
Mo, 12:57 AM
I love talking to you
Lavender, 12:57 AM
I know but you didn’t
Lavender, 12:57 AM
Anyway
Lavender, 12:57 AM
Am going to bed
Mo, 12:57 AM
im very sorry Sof
Lavender, 12:57 AM
So good night
Mo, 12:57 AM
Skype has been wierd lately
Mo, 12:58 AM
wait
Mo, 12:58 AM
youre going to sleep now?
Lavender, 12:58 AM
Yes
Mo, 12:58 AM
Sof
Mo, 12:58 AM
I'm so sorry
Lavender, 12:59 AM
It’s okay
Mo, 12:59 AM
this sleep medicine interferes with my memory
Mo, 1:00 AM
I was hoping we could at least talk...are you really tired?
Mo, 1:01 AM
Youre gone...
Mo, 1:01 AM
I'm sorry Sof
Lavender, 1:03 AM
I am tired
Mo, 1:03 AM
please forgive me Sof
Lavender, 1:04 AM
You don’t need to be sorry and you don’t need to ask forgiveness
Mo, 1:04 AM
I need you Sof
Mo, 1:04 AM
I'm so depressed
Lavender, 1:04 AM
You’ll be fine
Mo, 1:05 AM
i hope so...
Mo, 1:05 AM
I DO remember talking to you yesterday
Mo, 1:06 AM
well
Mo, 1:06 AM
Today youre time, I guess
Mo, 1:08 AM
I love you Sof
Lavender, 1:10 AM
3:26 pm your time is when I called
Lavender, 1:11 AM
Spoke for 3 mints and 25 seconds
Lavender, 1:11 AM
That’s 3 : 26 am my time
Lavender, 1:11 AM
And I haven’t slept
Mo, 1:12 AM
yes, I think the call broke up
Lavender, 1:12 AM
No it didn’t..
Lavender, 1:12 AM
Anyway
Lavender, 1:12 AM
Just wanted to let you know I waited
Mo, 1:12 AM
what happened then?
Mo, 1:13 AM
Sof I feel horrible now
Lavender, 1:13 AM
You said your on a break and leaving to go home .. you’ll be online then
Lavender, 1:13 AM
I don’t want you to feel forced into doing anything
Mo, 1:14 AM
I want to talk to you
Lavender, 1:14 AM
It just made me realize things
Mo, 1:14 AM
I love hearing youre voice
Mo, 1:14 AM
like?
Lavender, 1:15 AM
I don’t like getting attached
Lavender, 1:15 AM
It’s not healthy
Lavender, 1:16 AM
And since I waited I just realized maybe what your feeling is different than mine
Mo, 1:16 AM
Sof... I'm already attached... I love you
Mo, 1:16 AM
Please give me another chance...
Lavender, 1:17 AM
Sam it’s not about chances
Mo, 1:17 AM
What do you want me to do Sof?
Mo, 1:17 AM
I cant change the past
Lavender, 1:17 AM
I don’t want you to do anything
Mo, 1:18 AM
...are you going to disappear again?
Mo, 1:18 AM
because
Mo, 1:18 AM
I can't take that...over and over
Lavender, 1:18 AM
Take What ?
Mo, 1:19 AM
think about the good times you and i have had]
Mo, 1:20 AM
I cant take you disappearing
Mo, 1:20 AM
it hurts
Mo, 1:22 AM
You said you loved me too...
Lavender, 1:23 AM
Sam what am trying to say is that I waited for you because you said you’ll be there .. and when I saw you online I haven’t seen a msg from you and that’s not you ... Even if ur not online or away you usually leave something ... but when I saw you there and never wanted to msg you back because I knew you where not waiting .... and who am I to ask you to ? I did hated myself for those mints
Mo, 1:24 AM
Sof, I'm always online
Mo, 1:25 AM
You can always call or msg me
Lavender, 1:25 AM
I didn
Lavender, 1:25 AM
But when I do I never do it again
Mo, 1:25 AM
Why?
Lavender, 1:26 AM
Because if you want to answer those calls or reply back you would
Lavender, 1:26 AM
I won’t bug
Mo, 1:26 AM
Sof if you leave...im going to be shattered
Lavender, 1:26 AM
I won’t clench
Lavender, 1:27 AM
The attachment is already killing me
Lavender, 1:27 AM
But do you know what that means ?
Mo, 1:27 AM
We dont have to be romantic if you dont want to, I just want you as a friend
Mo, 1:27 AM
more if thats what you want
Lavender, 1:28 AM
You tell me what you want
Mo, 1:28 AM
but please dont leave me again
Lavender, 1:28 AM
Am not leaving
Lavender, 1:28 AM
Am asking you
Lavender, 1:28 AM
What do you want
Mo, 1:28 AM
I want to feel close to you
Lavender, 1:29 AM
What does that mean ?
Mo, 1:29 AM
just what it sounds like... I love talking to you
Mo, 1:30 AM
Sof...
Lavender, 1:31 AM
Yes I love you and am getting attached and that can’t not be erased and undone .. but do you feel the same way? Or is it a phase ?
Mo, 1:31 AM
if you dont want to talk to me anymore because I made a mistake...
Mo, 1:31 AM
No
Lavender, 1:31 AM
Sam what was the mistake that you made ?
Mo, 1:31 AM
its not
Mo, 1:32 AM
absoutely not
Mamono, 1:33 AM
"Love" is not a word I take lightly
Lavender, 1:33 AM
That how it felt like to me
Lavender, 1:33 AM
You left me hanging made me question myself
Mo, 1:33 AM
I am sorry, I never meant to make you feel that way
Lavender, 1:34 AM
And am not angry at you or upset
Lavender, 1:34 AM
I am just angry at myself
Mo, 1:34 AM
You should be angry at me
Mo, 1:34 AM
it was my fault
Lavender, 1:34 AM
Am not that person Sam who gets angry and fight
Lavender, 1:34 AM
I question myself for what ever happens
Lavender, 1:35 AM
Am a critical thinker
Lavender, 1:35 AM
Am an analytical person
Mo, 1:35 AM
It was my fault, and I'm so sorry
Mo, 1:35 AM
I know you are
Lavender, 1:36 AM
And when something happens I don’t blame anyone but myself for maybe understanding things wrong
Mo, 1:36 AM
you shouldnt blame yourself for something thats my fault
Lavender, 1:36 AM
I never cried for a long time
Mo, 1:37 AM
Sof...
Lavender, 1:37 AM
But I did few hours ago
Mo, 1:37 AM
its lunch time... im going to step out to my car
Lavender, 1:37 AM
I know we are 12 hours apart
Mo, 1:38 AM
okay
Lavender, 1:38 AM
And I know that I get so attached to a point where I can’t easily let go
Mo, 1:38 AM
You dont have to
Lavender, 1:38 AM
And with attachment comes disappointment
Mo, 1:39 AM
no
Mo, 1:39 AM
not always
Mo, 1:40 AM
with attachment comes two people getting closer
Mo, 1:42 AM
did you get that call?
Lavender, 1:43 AM
Yes
Lavender, 1:43 AM
My vpn was off
Lavender, 1:43 AM
Without it being on. The calls breaks
Mo, 1:44 AM
ohh I see
Mo, 1:45 AM
maybe try calling me?
And the Call end at 3:24am
