I Am Scared

I have been applying to random places because I really need a job. Whenever I get a phone call from a stranger, I am always wishing it is a talent agency that saw me somewhere magically that would give me an acting job. I hate living with my parents and having to take jobs I don't care about just to make money. I want to move away to a place where I can get auditions. The problem is that everywhere is expensive to live. I want my luck to change. I keep thinking about the movie La La Land in how the character of Mia moved to Hollywood to get a jumpstart in her acting career. Even if she was unsuccessful, she still made a big step to do that. That's better than me. I have told my parents how I feel but they think acting is a pipe dream. They aren't exactly encouraging me to spread my wings. I feel like my only option is to run away from home and go after my dreams but I know it would break my mom's heart but I feel like I have to think of myself too. I am just scared that I will never get to where I want to go. It's one thing for me not to get parts after auditioning but to not even audition because I live in an area where there are no opportunities? That hurts me more. People have told me to just go but it's not easy when you can't afford anything. I need a miracle money machine.