I Am Scared
I've been talking about the fact that in graduating from college soon because it means a lot to my life.
First of all my years in the university have been the best years of my life. For a lot of people its because they had "fun" and met lots of new people and whatnot but for me its been quite the opposite.
I've lived alone for the past (almost) 5 years now and I've discovered a lot more about myself. I know a lot more about me now, I've figured out the things I like and dislike and why, and so on. Its kind of hard to explain but before college I was pretty much a "loser" in high school and just wanted to be accepted somewhere, but for the past few years I've learned that my approval of myself is more important than what anyone else thinks of me.
I still have a lot of growing to do, to be honest, I've isolated myself too much for the past few years. And now I'm about to graduate and be thrown into the real world. And to be honest, its scary. Really scary. I'm just 20 years old now, will be 21 soon, and the thoughts that "maybe I started college too young" and similar are creeping in. But I can't stay here forever, even if I graduated later than today I'd still have to face the world someday.
I hope I'll find the strength to start my life and become successful enough to earn a decently comfortable living. And I hope i eventually figure out all the things I still feel are "missing".
First of all my years in the university have been the best years of my life. For a lot of people its because they had "fun" and met lots of new people and whatnot but for me its been quite the opposite.
I've lived alone for the past (almost) 5 years now and I've discovered a lot more about myself. I know a lot more about me now, I've figured out the things I like and dislike and why, and so on. Its kind of hard to explain but before college I was pretty much a "loser" in high school and just wanted to be accepted somewhere, but for the past few years I've learned that my approval of myself is more important than what anyone else thinks of me.
I still have a lot of growing to do, to be honest, I've isolated myself too much for the past few years. And now I'm about to graduate and be thrown into the real world. And to be honest, its scary. Really scary. I'm just 20 years old now, will be 21 soon, and the thoughts that "maybe I started college too young" and similar are creeping in. But I can't stay here forever, even if I graduated later than today I'd still have to face the world someday.
I hope I'll find the strength to start my life and become successful enough to earn a decently comfortable living. And I hope i eventually figure out all the things I still feel are "missing".
22-25, M
