I Am Scared
I am scared of so many things. Of love, my future, my thoughts and actions. I am scared that I will always love him and will have to see him love other people that aren't me and that never will be me. I am scared that I will always end up being hurt by someone who supposedly "loved" me, whatever that means. I am afraid that I will never be able to do and get what I want in the future. The thoughts that I have now and what I just want to do, could ruin a lot. Part of me just wants to give up and disappear yet another part wants to keep going and hopes for the best. But for me, the best never happens. I don't think that it ever will. I am just so scared.