I Battle Depression

[c=#7700B2]I know exactly what you are going through. I have had depression since I was 10 and medication helps but every so often I get these really bad episodes of depression that lasts for weeks at a time and it is hard to function and it is so hard to think positive and to also think so much negative things for example no one caring about you.
in my experience though, that is just the depression making you feel that way and people are out there who care for you very much. I wish I could give you any advice to help but I haven't found anything for me that helps. I guess just to try relaxing and distract yourself the best you can and let it ride it self out.

I hope you feel better really soon 🤗[/c]

It sounds like you got on a lot on your mind but I definitely know that feeling as if we are utterly replaceable or at worst, a parasite hogging precious oxygen but that's not true at all and I'm a stranger so it may not mean much, but I am of the belief we all have a purpose and matter a great deal in our own individual ways. The fact you are still here and reaching out to others means you are much stronger than that urge to run away and I hope you can recognize that you have achieved a victory by making it through each day. I don't know if I could help you any honestly, but if you ever want someone to talk to, I'll add you so don't be afraid to shoot a line!