I Want to Tell You About My Day

My day was going okay, tired but, okay. I started getting some energy but, then I started seeing couples and how happy they were to have found each other and it made me disappointed and sad. Because I don't know why I don't or can't have that. Growing up through school it felt like I didn't have what other girls had and I didn't know what it was. I guess from what I've been told, how I dress, like I love fashion and the 1800's and ect clothing with the frils and decorative scarfs and nice heels and purses and nylons and jewelry, that men get intimidated by me or, I've been told I can come off unapproachable. But, its like if I smile their turned off either way. If I don't, they feel the same way. So its I'm losing either way I turn. The very thing a woman is supposed to be able to do, I can't do. :,( Idk what to do except give up.


The last thing I want another person telling me is, "just wait, be patient, your time will come when you find the right guy. Your young, don't rush." I've been hearing that since I was old enough to be told that. Like I know that already, I mean if I didn't, then I would have settled for less or crap. But, I'm not. That's just the last thing any person in my shoes wants to hear because it just makes us more sad and disappointed about it all and, 2nd guess some things.