@Carissimi: Thank you Carrisimi. I have tried to keep an optimistic outlook on life, including my marriage. Kind intentions and great affections can only go so far, when one is determined to feel sorry for ones self, which is part of the problem.
But it is as much my fault as it is hers. But please don't be sorry, as both me and my wife are still very friendly and looking forward tot he separation.
Truth be told, i was planning on leaving her for sometime, but i didn't want to leave her hurting.
I wanted to make sure she had a car and money, and all the household thingies one needs before i left, but she likes using my money to buy her daughters affection, which would have been fine but she spent money faster that it could be made.
To top it all off, they would joke and laugh about it like they were controlling me and manipulating me, but this is how i was raised, its all i know.
So yeah, now she is moving out, one of her daughters is riddled with tiny bout of cancer through her body.My wife is on the verge of a breakdown, not that she will acknowledge it, and i feel apprehension on the separation, as i have been their for there family through births, deaths, and life, I have been there for marriages, divorces, and separations. Through sicknesses and jail, and drug addictions and a host of other things i wont mention, .. I was there to support her and her daughters.
Kinda want to be there for them now, but i want happiness as my joy is weakening and it is a source of my strengthen my essence.
