I Want A Long Deep Passionate Kiss

@Carissimi: Thank you Carrisimi. I have tried to keep an optimistic outlook on life, including my marriage. Kind intentions and great affections can only go so far, when one is determined to feel sorry for ones self, which is part of the problem.
But it is as much my fault as it is hers. But please don't be sorry, as both me and my wife are still very friendly and looking forward tot he separation.
Truth be told, i was planning on leaving her for sometime, but i didn't want to leave her hurting.
I wanted to make sure she had a car and money, and all the household thingies one needs before i left, but she likes using my money to buy her daughters affection, which would have been fine but she spent money faster that it could be made.
To top it all off, they would joke and laugh about it like they were controlling me and manipulating me, but this is how i was raised, its all i know.
So yeah, now she is moving out, one of her daughters is riddled with tiny bout of cancer through her body.My wife is on the verge of a breakdown, not that she will acknowledge it, and i feel apprehension on the separation, as i have been their for there family through births, deaths, and life, I have been there for marriages, divorces, and separations. Through sicknesses and jail, and drug addictions and a host of other things i wont mention, .. I was there to support her and her daughters.
Kinda want to be there for them now, but i want happiness as my joy is weakening and it is a source of my strengthen my essence.

@Dorkgerdo: You deserve to keep your joy and strength. I wish you the very best. May you be happy.

@Carissimi: thank you Carrissimmi, and may be happy as well.
If you ever wanted to.move to California....

I'm sorry. What strange and desolate marriages we have/had.

Life sure doesn't seem fair sometimes. Being a person who loves to give kisses and affection as well as receive, not being able to do that is very hard to deal with sometimes. Sad we both have that situation in our lives.

@boldtimer: It just happens that some people are not loved...there are so many. It's hard, but as the years and decades pass, maturity helps me cope with it better, but sometimes that burden of deprivation of human touch and affection becomes too much. We weren't born to be like this. We don't dream our lives will be like this.

May God help us all. I'm in a funk today.

I get that way. You know, you have read my grief over lost love.
I wis you a beautiful day tomorrow

@boldtimer: thank you. You too.

This is super cute. 🙂

That's supposed to be me giving you a hug 😂@Carissimi:

No.

It's like playing "catch" without a ball. If you miss BBQ you go to a BBQ restaurant. Or Chinese to a Chinese restaurant. You are never, ever too old to enjoy Chinese, BBQ, playing catch, or being passionately kissed. Heck, you are not old at all. Wet your lips and look around :)

@Heartlander: I'm not going to kiss just anyone. There has to be some connection and affection involved, and there is no one in my life like that.

I doubt it, but thanks.

A bit too young for me, dear. I wish I were 20-years younger. I see so many lovely young men about.

@Carissimi: oh shucks... :) Never mind.

@MenzernaSF4000: 🙂

@passionkisser: Have you never had a date or a girlfriend?

@Carissimi: No.

@passionkisser: I'm sorry.

Are you having regular cleanings, and using dental floss? If your teeth are decaying, you can have treatment...fillings, extractions, crowns etc.