I Im Trying My Hardest Even When Im Sad

I am so sad right now.
I have tried so hard to make everything come right in my life but nothing seems to work.all my life I have been fighting trying to make a name for myself trying to get the good things in life,but my life has just been one shot show that today I don't even know the reason I am alive. My life is so complicated it involves things beings that i have no control over but I'm trying my very hardest to fight for my family and I and I think the worst part of it is I really lost faith in God , really that even today I could just give up all the hard work I put in and just wait to die. I have so much of sorrow that consumes me every day that I don't even know if I will see a day of victory. I never thought 10 years ago that my life was gonna be this , if I knew I would have committed suicide I was so full of love and hope and even faith but today I have nothing. I do ask universe every day of my life to please help me get some positive energy in my life but I still await the day. Where I will see the sun shine again. The world really is a dark place I have seen evil in everything from nature to man to god itself and I just wonder if there will be a day I see love positive energy and god

english · 56-60, M

hey kiwi, sorry to hear you have had such a rough go of it,im not exactly sure how you have been so disappointed in your life its hard to give a good opinion when you dont have all facts. if ou ever just want to talk to someone im a good listener ,it sounds like you could do with a friend, I hope things get better for you, everyone deserves a break , i would like to know more about what set you on this path of frustration despair .🤗

MarkPaul · 26-30, M

God is not evil. All things are possible with God, but not always on the terms you desire.