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I Want to Disappear

I feel trapped in my job but also trapped by my fear of change while at the same time want to step into a whole new world in a whole new me.

I feel I need to take my self improvement slow but feel like I'm being left behind and running out of time, which then pressures me to move faster but the speed is too much for me and I fear I'll crash, break apart my progress and will have to start at square one again, so i slow down at my own pace again, back to feeling left behind.I

I have only one thing that I feel certain of wanting right now but can only earn with patience, understanding, and resilience against my insecurities which tell me I don't deserve or can't have that which I want. Which brings doubt about whether or not the thing I want is what I should want but the real question that I don't want to admit is, 'am I willing to wait for what I want?' I'm stuck between being passionate about proving how much I want it and struggling with not having it already and feeling ashamed of being so impatient about something so worth the wait.

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DLTC85383 · 46-50, M

LadyAlera you are young. If you are miserable this is the time to set up a resume on Career Builder and local career boards and make that jump. Plan accordingly. It is a good idea to have some savings for until you get the first paycheck on the new job.

Picklebobble2 · 56-60, M

You shouldn't feel guilty for wanting.
When it comes to jobs and careers few of us are on a trajectory that makes us feel good.
I often find I get 'pigeonholed' in certain positions because those with the power and influence to give me what I seek, need me to be in that 'pigeonhole' !

Fear of change is quite understandable !
Especially if it means radically changing that which (annoying as it may be) you know so well, for something with no guarantee of success !
But. They say life's full of second chances.
I guess the trick is to be brave and make the leap !
Actually that's good advice for us both !

DanielChristensen · 46-50, M

I am in a similar place in my life. Just keep working toward your goals and you've done everything in your power

lovingdead · 31-35, M

Babysteps.......life isn't a race, just a path, go at your own speed.

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