I Cant Remember My Past
I can't remember much of it because of being in a constant state of abuse for a good portion of my life. My brain has a wonderful way of erasing past events or people from my memory if they hurt me really bad. It's like I know certain things have happened but I can't really remember going through it. It's pretty nice to have after dealing with the heartache and fallout after an event. Quite useful indeed.
Recently, I had lost a close friend and came to terms with it. After that, my mind already got to work and started smudging her out of my memory. Occasionally, I get flashbacks or little reminders of her and feel a sense of loss. Though, after yesterday I erased so much of her that she doesn't have any sense of importance to me anymore. It feels like she's been burried deep in my past now. Really, if I'm sad at all, it's mostly because I miss being understood and close with someone. It has nothing to do with her anymore. Of course, that's what she wanted.
Recently, I had lost a close friend and came to terms with it. After that, my mind already got to work and started smudging her out of my memory. Occasionally, I get flashbacks or little reminders of her and feel a sense of loss. Though, after yesterday I erased so much of her that she doesn't have any sense of importance to me anymore. It feels like she's been burried deep in my past now. Really, if I'm sad at all, it's mostly because I miss being understood and close with someone. It has nothing to do with her anymore. Of course, that's what she wanted.
