I Don't Like Goodbyes

This world is very tough for me to be in. I know it may sound weird but it feels very foreign to me like I don’t belong. Like it’s not my home. I don’t understand it and one if the things that’s hardest for me about this world, other than how cruel humans can be to one another are the goodbyes. I can’t wrap my head around how you can know someone your entire life, love them and then just lose them. It is also hard for me to say goodbye with just normal goodbyes, not related to death. I had a hard time letting go of my high school friends teachers and classmates. I’m 26, now, graduated 9 years ago and I still miss and think about them all. It feels like a strong bond, like its unnatural to leave them, even those I didn’t really talk to. I just don’t get the concept of knowing someone and then they’re out of your life, whoever that person may be. I hate change and I hate goodbyes.