I Want to Leave the Past Behind
I am thinking of leaving Similar Worlds. I don't know if I'm rushing into things or if this is logical. It seems logical but maybe it's just my mindset at the moment.
I feel like when I joined EP, I really needed a place to be myself and express myself. I didn't have that anywhere else. I remember when I first joined, I was so scared. Everyone seemed so confident and I was scared to say something against the norm. It was so completely out of my comfort zone.
But eventually I really got into it. I started to love things about that website. And the people I met were so amazing too. I could say what I wanted, be myself and people wouldn't judge me. If they did, I wouldn't care. It also hardened me, what with all the trolls. I definitely learnt how to fight and that had a massive impact on me even in real life.
And of course, soon it became my home away from home. I guess that sounds rather pathetic doesn't it? A website and online community being compared to home - one like EP at that! But it's true. That's how I felt.
I even met someone on EP. And we became friends and met up and made a lot of beautiful plans. But it didn't work out, which is fine. Things don't always have to work out. But it was on EP. Of all the places to meet a guy lol.
My point is, that website was so special. It holds so many memories. Why am I on here? Because it's gone? But it's not the same, nothing will ever be the same.
EP is gone. I guess I should start acting like it instead of using this as an alternative. Even though it is technically an alternative.
While I was in that place where I needed to express myself back then, I don't feel the need to do that anymore because it gave me the courage to be who I am all the time, unapologetically. In the past couple of years I've been through so much and I haven't had EP. Maybe I don't need a support base like that anymore. But the sentimental person I am, I would never realise it and want to hold on anyway.
What a fool I am indeed. Who knows where we'll go from here.
I feel like when I joined EP, I really needed a place to be myself and express myself. I didn't have that anywhere else. I remember when I first joined, I was so scared. Everyone seemed so confident and I was scared to say something against the norm. It was so completely out of my comfort zone.
But eventually I really got into it. I started to love things about that website. And the people I met were so amazing too. I could say what I wanted, be myself and people wouldn't judge me. If they did, I wouldn't care. It also hardened me, what with all the trolls. I definitely learnt how to fight and that had a massive impact on me even in real life.
And of course, soon it became my home away from home. I guess that sounds rather pathetic doesn't it? A website and online community being compared to home - one like EP at that! But it's true. That's how I felt.
I even met someone on EP. And we became friends and met up and made a lot of beautiful plans. But it didn't work out, which is fine. Things don't always have to work out. But it was on EP. Of all the places to meet a guy lol.
My point is, that website was so special. It holds so many memories. Why am I on here? Because it's gone? But it's not the same, nothing will ever be the same.
EP is gone. I guess I should start acting like it instead of using this as an alternative. Even though it is technically an alternative.
While I was in that place where I needed to express myself back then, I don't feel the need to do that anymore because it gave me the courage to be who I am all the time, unapologetically. In the past couple of years I've been through so much and I haven't had EP. Maybe I don't need a support base like that anymore. But the sentimental person I am, I would never realise it and want to hold on anyway.
What a fool I am indeed. Who knows where we'll go from here.
