I Am Struggling With My Sexuality

I was sexually abused when I was 8 years old by my mother's brother. It went on from 8-10 whenever he visited my family. I never told my parents thinking that they won't believe me.
My child sexual abuse has made me afraid of sex and men.
I feel urges down there but I am afraid to touch myself because of my fear.
I am torn between my urges and my fear.
Sometimes it's so hard to cope up.