I Am Struggling With My Sexuality
Well, I understand that dealing with one's own sexuality can take time, but I feel like I really can't deal with it alone, or just ignore it, for that matter. It all started at the beginning of my senior year of high school. Now, up until this point, I just assumed I was straight, since I've had crushes only on girls. Well, there was this guy, who I had some classes with throughout my time in high school. He was really annoying and just bothered me a lot. Last year, though, he walks up to me and acts nice to me, wanting to start up conversation. I just decided to talk with him. As the year went on, I noticed that he was actually a really nice guy. He just liked to joke around, I guess. I noticed how he took a sudden interest to get to know me, and, I'm probably wrong, but I was picking up a vibe that he actually liked me. I don't know, but I really began to like him, though. I had a really strong crush on him, and I guess I could say now that I could have actually dated him. That is, assuming my vibe was correct! I never said anything, because I'm extremely timid, and, well, I was a little frightened too, but it felt nice. In weight training class he would occasionally touch me (like on the shoulder or on the chest, something like that). Now that I'm in college, I cannot shake the feeling that I may be bisexual, or even gay. I don't know if I'm fully straight, but this experience has made me think over and over as to who I am. It's so strange, though. I've never felt this confused.