Bit melodramatic, man. Join the club, lots of us would have died in infancy in the absence of modern medicine. Should have thought ahead and got born earlier if you were so sure you were meant to die that young.

Every organism deserves a change at life whether it's under developed, ill, injured or no vitals. It really does not a matter of if you feel you deserve life or not. You're here now, make the most of it while you can.

Myself I shouldn't be here either. I was clinically dead and TOD called on me in 2015. No idea why or how my heart and lungs started without assistance after TOD was called. No idea how I am not brain dead for as long as I was without a pulse and without a breath.

My lungs also start to close and shut down every few hours, and they have since birth. If it wasn't for continued advicement and pharmaceutical medicine I would of been dead long before 2015.

Don't dwell on the uncertainty of the "what now", but rather live in the moment and pay attention to everything around you. You're here for a reason and will know what purpose the maternity ward and NICU gave you life at birth for, whether it's tomorrow or years from now.

My twin an I were born VERY early and very small. Without modern medicine we'd have been dead as well. 🤷‍♀️

If you were a hundred years ago you would have probably died from the Spanish Flu.

Maybe you did and this is a reincarnation.

Be the best you can be....live your life, don't waste it.

You were given the greatest gift anyone could get ,be a shame to waste it being bummed out .