I Am Mentally Damaged Due To My Past

Yep. its my fault. I did this to myself. I did not listen to her, for so many years. Made some bad choices, did not pay attention to her, and well yeah its my fault for the situation I am in. Here alone missing my ex wife. Tonight I found the neck less she gave me, it was in a box, I opened it and there it was, they key to her heart. Part of me wants to give it back others parts say not. She has moved on, and I try to. She has found someone, and well I am here alone. I tried to do some dating talk to others, and well it feels so empty. There is nothing there. I mean they were nice and all, but for me all I feel is the emptiness the loss. Right now tonight, I just feel so broken, just so broken. No question I am very damaged goods and well there is no return policy here.