I Am Looking Forward to Moving Forward
So I had met this hispanic lady online. She's five years older than I, with such a cute smile. Upon speaking to her on the phone for the first time days ago, you could hear the bashfulness in her voice. I found it absolutely adorable.
We were supposed to finally get together tonight, with plans hopefully being made last night. I called her up to make arrangements and she never picked up. So I left a voicemail, assuming she'd call back when she was able. As I was heading to bed early, because I was that exhausted, I received a text from her:
"I'm texting you because I don't want to leave you wondering, but I'm going to have to have to cancel. I've been talking to someone else from the app and I'm going to see where it goes."
I have to say, at least she was honest. But this wasn't the first time anyone ever rejected me for someone else. I'm all too aware I'm not everyone's cup of tea. I suppose I was looking forward to getting to not only meet someone new, but to show someone all the things I have to offer. Having said that, I simply took the high road and replied with the following:
"Oh? Well, alright then. I guess all I can do is wish you the best of luck." I then went to bed, holding on to my body pillow, waiting for my ZMAs (Zinc and Magnesium) to kick in. I can't say I'm too surprised. I got out of a relationship because I wasn't happy. And now, I'm left here, being reminded of how fickle women can be sometimes. Again, I'm not rich, I'm not perfect, and my appearance is not one which most women desire. But I'd love to show someone what I CAN do, and that's more than even those with all the things I mentioned. I often wonder that I'm just meant to be alone all my life. I guess I might as well stop trying and just adjust already.
We were supposed to finally get together tonight, with plans hopefully being made last night. I called her up to make arrangements and she never picked up. So I left a voicemail, assuming she'd call back when she was able. As I was heading to bed early, because I was that exhausted, I received a text from her:
"I'm texting you because I don't want to leave you wondering, but I'm going to have to have to cancel. I've been talking to someone else from the app and I'm going to see where it goes."
I have to say, at least she was honest. But this wasn't the first time anyone ever rejected me for someone else. I'm all too aware I'm not everyone's cup of tea. I suppose I was looking forward to getting to not only meet someone new, but to show someone all the things I have to offer. Having said that, I simply took the high road and replied with the following:
"Oh? Well, alright then. I guess all I can do is wish you the best of luck." I then went to bed, holding on to my body pillow, waiting for my ZMAs (Zinc and Magnesium) to kick in. I can't say I'm too surprised. I got out of a relationship because I wasn't happy. And now, I'm left here, being reminded of how fickle women can be sometimes. Again, I'm not rich, I'm not perfect, and my appearance is not one which most women desire. But I'd love to show someone what I CAN do, and that's more than even those with all the things I mentioned. I often wonder that I'm just meant to be alone all my life. I guess I might as well stop trying and just adjust already.
36-40, M
