I'd Like To Know Where Your Mind Is At
Universe 1 - Lullacus 0.... Okay, So I've lost this round. But I won't give up. If I give up, I turn into my parents. That is a future that I run from... but not the only future I find myself running from. My dream has become a nightmare from which there is no escape. I thought we were running together, but now I find myself running alone - and in the opposite direction. Ironic, then that I can hardly walk at the moment. My mental cage wasn't amusing enough, so I have a physical one too now. Akasha sure is grandiose at times.
This is not the first time that I have lost mobility in a joint. It happened to my right knee in my last year in high school. That set in motion a chain of events that would lead my neurosurgeon to suspect that I have Ankylosing Spondylitis. He was concerned, but there was nothing he could do for me. AS is a chronic inflammatory arthritis, mostly affecting the spine and pelvic joints. It only gets worse with age, and it can't be fixed. So I ran from that too. Now, it would seem that it has caught up with me. I've been in excruciating pain for the last 36 hours. The codeine has dulled the pain, but still it persists. It alarms me that I can still feel pain after taking five times my usual dose of codeine.
My boyfriend, on the other hand, couldn't care less. He refuses to take it seriously. He is still running. But it did remind me of a very important reality - We're all on our own in this world. Even though we try so hard to convince ourselves otherwise. I want to run from this; inflamed hip and all.
This is not the first time that I have lost mobility in a joint. It happened to my right knee in my last year in high school. That set in motion a chain of events that would lead my neurosurgeon to suspect that I have Ankylosing Spondylitis. He was concerned, but there was nothing he could do for me. AS is a chronic inflammatory arthritis, mostly affecting the spine and pelvic joints. It only gets worse with age, and it can't be fixed. So I ran from that too. Now, it would seem that it has caught up with me. I've been in excruciating pain for the last 36 hours. The codeine has dulled the pain, but still it persists. It alarms me that I can still feel pain after taking five times my usual dose of codeine.
My boyfriend, on the other hand, couldn't care less. He refuses to take it seriously. He is still running. But it did remind me of a very important reality - We're all on our own in this world. Even though we try so hard to convince ourselves otherwise. I want to run from this; inflamed hip and all.
31-35, F
