I Want a Boyfriend
My boyfriend is coming over
And my skin pulsates at the thought
He has light skin
And Clear Eyes
And a bright personality to match
When we go to the beach
He rubs my back
And chases me until I fall in the sand laughing
He taught me how to surf
the Waves and
The Webs of my life
That often leave me stunned beyond speech
He holds me
Becomes part of me that isn’t me
I take in his imperfect perfection
And inhale him like
The scent of baked cookies
My boyfriend is coming
over to fix my cable
he’s wearing a white T-shirt that
Juxtaposes his brown skin
and highlights the gleaming muscles on his arms
And jeans with holes on the butt
that loosely fit around his waist
His magnificent hands go to work
As if the cable is my body
Caressing
Shifting
Plugging
In all the right places
and positions
When he turns from the cable Box
His radiant smile teases me
But he’s pleased that I called him
To fix my cables
My boyfriend is
He is very pensive
But makes me laugh like no other
He farts on the couch
And his feet smell
But he's warm
Like the home I never had
When he enters a dark place
He’s shut down
But I give him all of me
Like he has given me all of him
His dark, wavy
soft hair is cared for
Like his mother’s feet
When she comes home from work
My boyfriend
My boyfriend hates
How sensitive I am
But he holds me anyway
When I cry for no reason
When we play video games
He teaches me all the good tricks
To beat the computer teams
When we watch Pride and Prejudice for the umpteenth time
He's silent but endures it for me
My boyfriend. My boyfriend.
My.
Boyfriend.
He doesn’t exist
But he’s everywhere
His bits of perfection
Are lodged in other people’s imperfect relationships
His eyes
His mannerisms
His skin
His kindness
The crooked smile
And large, soft hands
But he doesn’t exist
His reality is blocked off
By my high standards
Unresolved Issues with Canada Man
My fear of letting anyone see the real me
My obsession with being free
Even though I'm
The caged bird that never sings
Maybe he doesn't exist
Because of me
Because,
I,
have failed
to Search for me
First.
And my skin pulsates at the thought
He has light skin
And Clear Eyes
And a bright personality to match
When we go to the beach
He rubs my back
And chases me until I fall in the sand laughing
He taught me how to surf
the Waves and
The Webs of my life
That often leave me stunned beyond speech
He holds me
Becomes part of me that isn’t me
I take in his imperfect perfection
And inhale him like
The scent of baked cookies
My boyfriend is coming
over to fix my cable
he’s wearing a white T-shirt that
Juxtaposes his brown skin
and highlights the gleaming muscles on his arms
And jeans with holes on the butt
that loosely fit around his waist
His magnificent hands go to work
As if the cable is my body
Caressing
Shifting
Plugging
In all the right places
and positions
When he turns from the cable Box
His radiant smile teases me
But he’s pleased that I called him
To fix my cables
My boyfriend is
He is very pensive
But makes me laugh like no other
He farts on the couch
And his feet smell
But he's warm
Like the home I never had
When he enters a dark place
He’s shut down
But I give him all of me
Like he has given me all of him
His dark, wavy
soft hair is cared for
Like his mother’s feet
When she comes home from work
My boyfriend
My boyfriend hates
How sensitive I am
But he holds me anyway
When I cry for no reason
When we play video games
He teaches me all the good tricks
To beat the computer teams
When we watch Pride and Prejudice for the umpteenth time
He's silent but endures it for me
My boyfriend. My boyfriend.
My.
Boyfriend.
He doesn’t exist
But he’s everywhere
His bits of perfection
Are lodged in other people’s imperfect relationships
His eyes
His mannerisms
His skin
His kindness
The crooked smile
And large, soft hands
But he doesn’t exist
His reality is blocked off
By my high standards
Unresolved Issues with Canada Man
My fear of letting anyone see the real me
My obsession with being free
Even though I'm
The caged bird that never sings
Maybe he doesn't exist
Because of me
Because,
I,
have failed
to Search for me
First.
26-30, M
