I Miss My Dad

I hope you find your dad one day. Every daughter should know their dad.

You can find him or at least records identifying him.

Literally all of my friends who tried, succeeded. To a one, the reunions were awkward and yet satisfying. A life long quest fulfilled. No one had any plans to do it again, either. The thinking was along the "been there, done that" line.

My "father" was a rapist, raped my mother

That's normal