I Miss My Dad
Took The Extra Mile... My dad is still alive but around the house, it won't seem like it so much. He moved to Connecticut because he was offered a job there after looking for months in our home state. I was glad he took it because my dad isn't getting any younger and money needs to be rolled into our family so we can survive. At the same time though, when my dad drove away on the new chapter in his life, I realized saying this wouldn't be a big deal is easier said than done. On the second night of Chanukah when we lit the candles, my dad broke down in sobs and wasn't able to finish the prayer because he was thinking what we all were thinking- this would be our last night as a family for a long time.
After I saw my dad drive away, I couldn't stop crying. I know I shouldn't because it's not like there was a death in the family or that my parents had a horrible divorce that caused my dad to move away. It mostly got to me because this isn't a business trip my dad is taking. It's a business move so I didn't know when the last time I would see my dad would be. The uncertainty scares me the most about this new change because this plot doesn't seem to have a predictable outcome for anyone.
I'm trying to be positive about all of this. My parents aren't divorced, my dad is alive, and he's not moving to a middle of nowhere area. It's Connecticut. A good area with great bordering states. I'm seeing this as a new chapter in all of our lives. I'm hoping we all can move to where he is once I graduate college and that when I look for jobs, I'll be able to find them in that area. But my mom is scared because she'll be by herself living the life of a single mother even though she's still happily married. She's looking at this too much like a negative situation since my mother is very analytical like myself. Just trying to write the entire essay in her head before it's written on paper. Sometimes in life, you do have to live spontaneously.
My aunts are trying to make my mother feel happy about my dad's move by saying it will be exciting but my mom didn't want to hear any of it. She knows my dad could get nervous about driving far and about starting over in a new area but I want my mom to see this as a new adventure and to go into this situation in a positive way. I'm just worried what my mom will do to deal with her stress. I won't be at home because I'm living on campus so I won't be able to be around 24/7. Just whenever I'm able to. Hopefully, my brother and sister will take care of my mom and get their heads out of their world of Facebook and ESPN games to help my mom through this.
I'll call my dad every day to fill him in on what's going on. It won't be like when he was living with us where I took him for granted knowing I was going to see him any weekend I wanted to. Now it's different. He won't be so I need to fill him in on everything going on with me so he doesn't feel left out. I know my dad is states away because he's trying to save our family from going bankrupt and that any sacrifices he's making, he's making with our family in mind and I will never forget that or hold it against him. My dad's been there for me anytime I needed him. Now I need to return the favor and stay strong and make sure my family does too.
After I saw my dad drive away, I couldn't stop crying. I know I shouldn't because it's not like there was a death in the family or that my parents had a horrible divorce that caused my dad to move away. It mostly got to me because this isn't a business trip my dad is taking. It's a business move so I didn't know when the last time I would see my dad would be. The uncertainty scares me the most about this new change because this plot doesn't seem to have a predictable outcome for anyone.
I'm trying to be positive about all of this. My parents aren't divorced, my dad is alive, and he's not moving to a middle of nowhere area. It's Connecticut. A good area with great bordering states. I'm seeing this as a new chapter in all of our lives. I'm hoping we all can move to where he is once I graduate college and that when I look for jobs, I'll be able to find them in that area. But my mom is scared because she'll be by herself living the life of a single mother even though she's still happily married. She's looking at this too much like a negative situation since my mother is very analytical like myself. Just trying to write the entire essay in her head before it's written on paper. Sometimes in life, you do have to live spontaneously.
My aunts are trying to make my mother feel happy about my dad's move by saying it will be exciting but my mom didn't want to hear any of it. She knows my dad could get nervous about driving far and about starting over in a new area but I want my mom to see this as a new adventure and to go into this situation in a positive way. I'm just worried what my mom will do to deal with her stress. I won't be at home because I'm living on campus so I won't be able to be around 24/7. Just whenever I'm able to. Hopefully, my brother and sister will take care of my mom and get their heads out of their world of Facebook and ESPN games to help my mom through this.
I'll call my dad every day to fill him in on what's going on. It won't be like when he was living with us where I took him for granted knowing I was going to see him any weekend I wanted to. Now it's different. He won't be so I need to fill him in on everything going on with me so he doesn't feel left out. I know my dad is states away because he's trying to save our family from going bankrupt and that any sacrifices he's making, he's making with our family in mind and I will never forget that or hold it against him. My dad's been there for me anytime I needed him. Now I need to return the favor and stay strong and make sure my family does too.
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