I Often Feel Left Out And Lonely

[big]On Being Unselected...[/big]

Unselected
Never wanted
Always left out
Feelings of being deficient
Not popular drilled into me
Behaviorally trained to have low self-esteem
Lost and alone; no one wants me
One step forward; then, always many steps back
Building to a crescendo how isolated I really am
Learn to live with perpetual hurt feelings; must be me
Humiliation of always being on the outside too much to bear
I can't find my way no matter the effort put into it
I am helpless and becoming hopeless and sadly lost - never to be found
If this was a movie, this is where the scene would fade to black
This does feel like an ending... this is where the story starts repeating itself

No one wants to hear the same thing over and over from a complainer
Is there really any point to it anyway; my progress is probably bogus
I feel like I might be regressing in an extremely excessive way
I will never be able to break out of this; it's obvious
The truth is I am incidental at best; that's pathetic
I am that guy who people turn away from
It's as though my fate is already sealed
I don't want to give up, but...
It's so sad... so tragic... [cries]
I'm not a sad person
I'm not horrible either
I have flaws
Time to...
Fade to
Black.